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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
@ 12:09 PM

man...i can't belive it! the band got gold with honours?
this is so..
crazy.unfair.strange.unexpected.pressurising.unreal
( er.. too good to be true ?)
but it ish true lor.. it ish true.. n i feel very... (unexplainable) i feel that they now expect more from the dance lor... i actually tot that we could get a gold for once.. but now.. i feel more depressed.. i nearly cried when i heard the news lor... dunno whether happy or sad le.. but i hv this sinking feeling that we can't get anything lor.. gosh.. i think im going to tear... i can't belive it lor.. i mean im happy for them la.. im not totally anti-band or something... but.. i really cannot take it anymore... their conductor is a sucker n yet they can get such good results? im really feeling very desperate now.. im really feeling desperate.. i really really really need to get gold now... if i dun.. ill beg in front of the judges... in serious... ill cry man... if we dun get gold.. ill cry like crazy... im really very stressed out now lor.. the school will definatly expect more fm us now... given tt we got silver last year... maybe we should hv just gotten a COP or something.. den they won't expect much from us..
ill tell u why we need a gold..
this is because the principal mentions the band most of the time... think abt it la... remember him mentioning the dance group at least once this year? NO! i dun remember.. we r like nothing.. we r like dirt.. no... more like dust... they dun even look at us lor.. no one cares... gosh.. im crying.. i dunno whether i should think positively or negetively lor.. i really dunno.. i really do not wanna be disappionted on that day.. i feel so lost.. i feel so poor in standard... i just hope that we really dun get a COP on that day.. n i just hope that the band won't hate us so much.. we really need moral support on that day(this coming wed)
i feel so lost that i do not even feel like studying now.. that is why im blogging now..
just now when my friend msg me..(bob) i called him striaght after i saw his msg.. i could'nt believe it.. n when i called him.. he asked me to hear his band pals sing over the phone they call 'the band song' it went something like this...
'band got gold with honours...'
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i was sorta pissed of.. i dunno if they were sharing their joy with me or they were just boasting lor... n fm that moment i started to feel like crying... im really very afraid...
i just feel so stressed out.. i really cannot take it anymore lor.. i just wanna get gold.. is that too much to ask for? n i dun think tt our dance is even silver standard this year lor...
nevermind.. i won't be so mean.. er.. to the band... congrats..
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so come on people.. please work very hard on that day.. please.. im begging u...
lets cross our fingers..
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dancin outta here...



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