Tuesday, September 06, 2005
@ 12:39 PMyup.
yesterday was the very first class gathering that i hv ever been to..
i meant 4s3 gathering..
b/4 that i was at church.. something really amazing happened to me. i hv never felt to free. so free of stress. if i hv any, stress i mean. our pastor called for an altar call n even b/4 i went out, i my eyes started to tear. i sorta hesitated on whether i should step out or not. but then, eventually, i went out. i felt exactly the same as how i felt in youth camp, although i didn't cry as bad. when i stepped out front, it was as if i crossed an invisible barrier. then it feels as though something powerful n strong enters you, or more like goes through u. it continues to penetrate your entire being. the presence continues to enter you n takes all the pressure, loneliness, stress, unhappiness, rejection, anger, fustration and thoughts of dying, n replaces the empty space with something nice. it's as if u r new again. its like a speacial type of liquid paper. it erases everything old so that u can hv something new on top.. only that the ink beneath the correction fluid does not stay there. it's gone. so there isn't layers n layers of black ink there anymore. i dun noe how to really describe it. but its... wonderful. u r filled with joy. love. peace.
i hv been finding that for such a long time.
sometimes i go out n i feel, nothing. n i feel so fustrated. n i cry. cuz i feel so deserted, n isolated fm God. i dun want that to happen. its scary.
anw.. i went out. yes. im still very happy from yesterday.
[thks to rachel chloe n abigail]
oh ya.n the flood gates of heaven opened from my nose..
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thanks bro willy [hope i got yr name right]
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den i went to watch ' the perfect catch' it was funny, n jac treated me that for my b'day! thanks! n we took neoprints. jac also got for herself FOUNDATION!!!!! yea!!!!! co sool! den we proceeded to mr chew's house in taxi..
yup.. at first everybody was sooo hostile.. i dun really noe why? it just.. happened! n we were all so, seperated. it felt bad. then we started to talk n stuff. n everything was better as time passed by. there was stingray!!!! n marshmellows!!!!! when everybody was full n happy, we went up,to mr chews room, to watch a movie. erm.. no comments. abt the movie i mean..
we also took alot of pictures!! haha! i guess i felt that that day was really fun n everything was because of my encounter with the holy spirit.. happy!
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tml we r going to singapore poly..
hope it'll be cool..
thanks to weixin u helped me transfer the songs into my zen!
kisses*
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anw.. the big 'o's r coming
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*daNc3.
yesterday was the very first class gathering that i hv ever been to..
i meant 4s3 gathering..
b/4 that i was at church.. something really amazing happened to me. i hv never felt to free. so free of stress. if i hv any, stress i mean. our pastor called for an altar call n even b/4 i went out, i my eyes started to tear. i sorta hesitated on whether i should step out or not. but then, eventually, i went out. i felt exactly the same as how i felt in youth camp, although i didn't cry as bad. when i stepped out front, it was as if i crossed an invisible barrier. then it feels as though something powerful n strong enters you, or more like goes through u. it continues to penetrate your entire being. the presence continues to enter you n takes all the pressure, loneliness, stress, unhappiness, rejection, anger, fustration and thoughts of dying, n replaces the empty space with something nice. it's as if u r new again. its like a speacial type of liquid paper. it erases everything old so that u can hv something new on top.. only that the ink beneath the correction fluid does not stay there. it's gone. so there isn't layers n layers of black ink there anymore. i dun noe how to really describe it. but its... wonderful. u r filled with joy. love. peace.
i hv been finding that for such a long time.
sometimes i go out n i feel, nothing. n i feel so fustrated. n i cry. cuz i feel so deserted, n isolated fm God. i dun want that to happen. its scary.
anw.. i went out. yes. im still very happy from yesterday.
[thks to rachel chloe n abigail]
oh ya.n the flood gates of heaven opened from my nose..
-------
thanks bro willy [hope i got yr name right]
-------
den i went to watch ' the perfect catch' it was funny, n jac treated me that for my b'day! thanks! n we took neoprints. jac also got for herself FOUNDATION!!!!! yea!!!!! co sool! den we proceeded to mr chew's house in taxi..
yup.. at first everybody was sooo hostile.. i dun really noe why? it just.. happened! n we were all so, seperated. it felt bad. then we started to talk n stuff. n everything was better as time passed by. there was stingray!!!! n marshmellows!!!!! when everybody was full n happy, we went up,to mr chews room, to watch a movie. erm.. no comments. abt the movie i mean..
we also took alot of pictures!! haha! i guess i felt that that day was really fun n everything was because of my encounter with the holy spirit.. happy!
-------
tml we r going to singapore poly..
hope it'll be cool..
thanks to weixin u helped me transfer the songs into my zen!
kisses*
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anw.. the big 'o's r coming
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*daNc3.
hugs&muacks
Name: Rachel
