@ 1:34 AM

hey.. im posting cause i wanna share with everybody a very sad event.. last night... at church during our christmas rehearsal, my friends found an injured bird outside our church.. so i took it in and put it in toilet papers in a box to keep it warm... i fed it water n oats n i actually thought of bringing it home.. cause i found it very pathetic n stuff... it's small.. hurt n soo featherless.. one of my friend suggested that it either fell off its nest.. or.. it has been attacked by a cat....
so.. after the rehearsal... i took it back home..
the next day early in the moring... at arnd 6 am.. my mom came into my room n told me that she tot the bird was dead... i was very depressed but i fell asleep... I FELL ASLEEP!!! you'd think i would hv sat up. rushed down. n perform cpr on it!! [if that could be done] but yes.. i fell asleep.. when i woke up in the moring.. i tot that was a dream y'noe... i tot that was just a horrible nightmare... but when i went down to drink my tea... n check on it.
there it was. dead. lifeless.
i was shocked. i didnt noe what to do.. and i kept asking myself.
'why did it die?'
den of course.. i check to see if it was really dead.. and it was..
cold. stiff. still.
it was terrible.. i felt terrible.. i cant believe i actually let it die.. i should hv stayed up all night to feed it when it chriped. it was the first time i hv ever really really felt disappointed in myself besides my not doing well in exams..
so many ppl in church said that it would definately die.. i just wanted to prove them wrong. i wanted to show that with tlc. it would live..
but apparently.. it didn't. its heart failed.