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Saturday, December 08, 2007
@ 3:12 AM

i feel completely, utterly useless.
because i forget things that are the most important to me,
the first thing i forgot was the most important thing,
i just remembered it today when i was showering in the morning,
and the due date was two days before, wednesday.
yes, for crying out loud... i forgot my module selection,
and for now i am not sure what i would be doing next year for my course.

just because i simply forgot.
i am so irritated with myself and my forgetfulness.
maybe its because i still cant sleep soundly?
i really need sleep, good sleep. maybe i should take sleeping pills..
i am also getting sick, my nose is stuck ninety percent of the time, and my throat is clogged with phlegm.

i thought yesterday was really fun, but i ruined it today with my forgetfulness.
me and my stupid mind.
and i didnt even pick up the phone.
when i saw the message i was so broken.
broken that i wasnt good enough,
broken that i forget.
broken that your tone wasnt very nice.
broken that no matter how much i try to change i cant change.
broken of the initial hostility, eventhough you are leaving already.
and also broken that eventho there's only 2 days left i cant change to make it better..

sigh. now i am just so.... and i sure that you dont like it too..



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